Dead Weight

I pound upon these walls
"please let me out of here"
I drag my chain and ball
my days turn into years

Scratching at the door
pleading for redemption
bare is the floor
the bed that I sleep on.

Each picture shows a frown
a framed reminder of my mistake
I turn them all face down
not to forget what is at stake.

My body hurts all over
blood drenched fingertips
My face has grown over
chapped and cracked are my lips

Not even a sip or taste of life
have I drank in oh so long
I dream days gone by
and try to sing a song

Yet the melodies escape me
not a hint of happiness here
this place I've created
bringing to life my own fears

The sun shines so seldom
when it does it burns all
a flame of death to scorch them
those who came to fall

My feet are worn tender
I pace both day and night
to ponder a thought of genius
free me from my life

I forgive yet not forgiven
believe yet not believed in
a horrid task to be driven
to condemn a man so convicted

I pray now not for myself
a hopeless cause to all who know
I beg of mercy for them
who are approaching now so slow

This prison is not hell
but still a state of mind
when yea hear a silent yell
with perfect vision become so blind.

Still I scratch at these walls
pleading for redemption
Idrag my chain and ball
my self-inflicted convictions.

No Strings Attached

"I've got to go now"
words spoken too often
she bends, a kiss on his forehead
as she closes the door softly

"Things are moving to slow now"
Thinking to herself
She glances at her reflection
She has her youth, her health...

He will wake without her
Wonder what may have came
With wiskey and opportunity,
He will never know her shame

The day will pass so quietly
Knowing actions so impulsive
Walking away without dignity
Leaves little room for emotion

If only we keep ourselves busy
We will forget our troublesome past
For as one night they surely loved
Yet only one night their love would last

He feels no reason to oblige her
No need to call her name
Last night was all about her
"But sweety, this is today"

She sits this night at home
Arms tight around her chest
Legs covered, all alone
Showing her worst, she did her best

He will never feel it
The pain she holds inside
Another night, another girl
As this one begins to cry

Why can he not show me
A sign to carry on
All I ask is to be free
From a midnight call on his phone

He knows she is always there
He can look her in the eyes
His heart in a thousand yard stare
Making her believe every lie.

"I'm sorry i have to go now"
Once again her lips whisper
Another night, a lonely girl
Never again will he call her.